Fear

I've been thinking a bit. I guess that's what tends to happen at this time. I have been living in fear lately. Throughout the year I was getting better at not living that way. I was progressing, taking risks...all that junk. I thank my ninja guide.

Recently I've had a bit of a setback. I've reverted back to living in fear. And so, I've been avoiding things and being stubborn.

I really can't keep running away. I need to get over what I cannot control and move on. I need to trust in someone....something....anything. I must accept that I will get hurt every once and a while.

I'm terrified...but I have to attempt to master that fear. Otherwise I'm not living.

I shouldn't be holding back as much as I am. I made a promise that I would be honest at least to myself.

I just hope I don't go completely mad.

~AM