Diabolical Plan

I don't want to get hurt.

But I have this diabolical plan you see.

What is this diabolical plan?

I'm not telling you...part of the diabolical plan is to keep it a secret.

I'm starting to hallucinate things...but it's good. It's not bugs or anything this time.

I don't know if what I'm doing is the right thing to do...but I feel I must pursue this.

It's one of those "you'll never know unless you try" type of things. If I don't try...then I lose an opportunity. I can't afford to do that.

Part of me screams "Don't do it!" and the other part screams "GO!".

One thing I do know, I'm not dealing with anything normal.

I don't want to make a mistake. I'm so fearful that I'll mess up...I think I'm trying to hard.

It's like I set myself up for failure.

~AM