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I know I'm not there
I know I'm limited in what I can do for you
I know I'm not the most important person in your life
I still care about you though
I know I'm not someone you really confide in
I know you don't feel what I feel
I don't know how many times I've spoken to you, but you haven't heard me
There are so many things I've said to you
so many sweet things
and you don't know what they are
maybe one day the wind will actually carry the words to you
or perhaps I'll say them to you
not now though
and possibly not ever...
I feel so helpless
I feel so distant from you
I want to be with you
I want to comfort you
I want to laugh with you
I want...anything and everything
You don't know how hard it is
every day without you is more painful than I thought it would ever be
I might sound crazy
creepy
obsessed
I know
I can't control it
I wish you knew how much I really do care about you
how much I think about you
and how I truly feel about you
I'm afraid to say it

~AM